Of course, at an intellectual level (which can also be at a superficial level if I’m not honest with myself) I can say “of course I trust God… I mean I’m a priest… it’s supposed to be part of my gig, right?” And there’s truth to that. But I know how often I still wrestle with the devil – with fears, doubts, temptations… areas where, in all honesty, I know my trust in God, my faith in Him can waver, or become a bit weaker…. things that limit me or even undermine my calling; my vocation to not just be a priest, but to be a Christian who walks the talk. That was the reality that came to light the more I dug into these scriptures. Because in so many ways, there’s good enough reason for those closest to God, closest to Jesus to doubt in these scriptures… yet He keeps inviting them to this deeper trust in Him and His ways. Just think about it:
I think that’s one of the reasons why we’re given these readings on this second Sunday of Lent. Here we’ve set out on this 40 day spiritual journey to delve deeper in our relationship with the Lord. To see all the areas that need renewal… repenting of my sins that have hurt others, hurt myself, and in some way, turned me away from God. To be open to hearing anew how God loves each and every one of us unconditionally… That he looks at each of us as His beloved Son and Daughter (just sit with that thought for a moment… thanks to Jesus Christ, these words from God the Father are true for each of us… the voice from the sky calls out and looks at each of us and says ‘This is my beloved Son… This is my beloved Daughter…”) How awesome is that? How wonderful and reassuring is the thought that all of us are His beloved sons and daughters that He wants to hug warmly and touch our lives like a loving father. It’s also very comforting to know that God our Father has a call, a special plan for each and every one of us.